I just this week completed the first draft of my first novel, tentatively called That Time the Earth Almost Melted: A land-based space comedy. If you hate that title, well there’s plenty more to hate after that. And that’s where you come in: I need volunteers to help me out by beta reading this tome before I even think about publishing it.
What about this butterfly,
hovering just outside
quietly scratching nectar
from an otherwise tranquil
What order abounds
while vibrant wings drum,
beating back air,
recently born, absorb
the serenity of another
summer day, newly tranquil,
What glamour transforms
the inching caterpillar,
bravely to destiny,
emerging improved, firm
from an otherwise tranquil
What life occurs, unheard
revived in sunlight,
revealing the joy
of a pedestrian world
breathing beyond my reach,
The clock prefers
a polite tree,
ring with each
for the trouble.
The corridor reads
all mundane nameplates,
unspooled before it
The flame pretends
it cares, ice
I don’t bother with the news
on television, where heads talk over
each other, no one listening nor
changing minds. A platform for despicable people
to “both sides” an issue, even
those where merit, truth, meaning dissolve
into deafening static, noise for its own sake.
I thought this would have changed
after 2016, this desire
to give equal time to unequal opinions, equal
time to lies.
So many other things have devolved
unequivocally. This morning a government official
said on camera the Statue of Liberty, a monument
who welcomes immigrants to the American Dream
should only invite
people who can stand on their own
two feet. My ancestors invaded before
her flame was lit, conquerors but white. Of course
that matters, giving rise to, supporting, and benefiting
from a system designed to burn, a fire warming some,
destroying others. From the ashes, civilization
more equal, but tilted still, for some.
Perhaps rather than change we have reached the end,
brought now through years of complacency
or compliance, distracting us as we change
The world has turned and left me spinning
time is thinning
and I am alive. I long to live
in the clouds, my mind
a head of me
among the billowing blanket of puffy cumulus,
a misty mystic world, delicate and wet
hinting at gray but not turning,
only pulpy white.
But mostly the soft outline of anticipation
traces my thoughts
not among the clouds but
thin whisps of moonlight spin
a web in windows obscuring – or
delaying – the world
where I go round.
I’ll not wake up, no,
swimming here in this conch shell
of a life, shadows tickling my ear,
playing house while the real
world assumes it’s won.
I’ll not confront it, no,
kicking up the remains of reality
swept under expensive furniture
when we could afford the luxury
of not caring.
I’ll remain in my head,
enveloped by this conch shell,
closed to those sounds desperate
to encroach, honking displeasure
at deaf eyes shut.
I envy the novelist, words
by the hundreds sliding fingertip
to screen, a playground of plot somersaulting
to the next.
I grieve for the poet, whose
inert pen hesitates, immobilized
by the next word slipping though a fingertip,
out of reach.
I have yet to meet one I like.
The moon goes round the earth, tilted
but not for me. Storms come in
at a time as people
float in and out of my life, flotsam passing
out of sight.
Living in the nots we are but leaves
so leave the dirt
behind as the earth tilts towards
another winter, another spring
out of nowhere.
We are all but visitors, sojourning
through where we think
we ought to reside
sometimes thinking forward, often
Or perhaps we are visions, soldiering
as we can, knowing
the world ends
when we’re dead and yet
clinging to the gift of possible.
Sometimes there is no deeper meaning and
a rose is just a flower.
So we petal through
wondering what it all matters,
even if we are just matter.